Too tired to think of a witty title

Happy day though! I got a phone call from my new OB's office in Boise. They got the referral and I have an appointment for the end of April. I have to go back to the base clinic in a week or so to check my glucose numbers, but then it should be just to Boise after that.

These glucose numbers are going to do me in. 30 weeks of watching every single thing that goes into my mouth? Remember that lovely Bipolar and ADHD thing? I went off my meds, with my doctor's approval of course, before I got pregnant to hopefully avoid some rather nasty birth defects. Which means that life has been rather interesting at times. With Amanda moving, that means lots of stress. And when I am stressed I get depressed. And then I want to eat. Pizza, jelly beans, swiss cake rolls, nutty buddy's, pasta alfredo, peanut butter Captain Crunch....... you name it. These are no good for my sugar numbers. The doctor is going to have a hay day with some of the ones I had today! I must really be diabetic already, because a normal person would have been fine. I'm trying not go eat this stuff, but all I want to do really is take my happy pills again, pay someone to clean my house, and go take a 3 day nap.

I think the stress has started me into a slight depressive episode.

I'm losing my mind too. Oren's teacher called to let me know I missed our parent/teacher conference today. I could have sworn that was tomorrow! The only other opening she has is Wednesday afternoon, which is Nathan's therapy. And a piano lesson. But I need to talk to her and see how his afternoon dose has been working, so I guess the other things will be rescheduled. I don't really know how I mixed the days up! Of course I wasn't home when she called, I was at Amanda's new house helping her get her kitchen put together. Oops!

Nathan's Adventure!

We had a great day in Boise today. I left the other boys with Mark, and Nathan and I had some special time together. We hit the doctor's office first, where he got a huge hug from Dr. Beck. She cleared him for therapy, said he was healing great. No trace of a hole from the infection and wants to see us back in 3 months to see how the palate healed. Yay! She wasn't running too far behind, so we didn't have to spend 2 hours just waiting to see her today.

There is a new Joanns open here so we headed over there. I needed a duck applique for a baby towel I am doing for a friend, and I got the perfect one. Nathan got a treat since it was our special time. He doesn't get a lot of those, just him and a parent. It's the whole middle child thing, I think.

Next we popped over to Cost Plus, where they have some really neat home decor and even more important..... neat ethnic foods! Imported stuff from Spain, Indian curries, British candy, Italian pastas..... fun stuff. We got some multicolored alphabet pasta for dinner tomorrow and some cool pencils just for fun.

All this running made us hungry so we stopped into Carl's Jr for some lunch before heading home. Next time I am getting a kids meal, or just splitting Nathan's. Neither of us could finish our food! I about fell asleep on the way home so decided to take a nap when I got us there. Then there was a phone call from Steph that thoroughly enjoyed until Nathan tripped coming out of our reading corner and plowed into the corner of the piano bench.

Once I got the blood cleaned up the cut looked a little deeper than I would like to see, so Steph and I had to get off the phone so I could get kids ready. We stopped at Amanda's, they were doing yard work today, to get a second opinion before I dragged all 3 kids to the ER. She agreed it may need sewn up, he gashed a decent amount right below his lip, almost in the corner. She kept Oren there with her to help pull weeds and play with the neighbor girl.

1 1/2 hours later we swung back home with 2 stitches by his lip. They didn't use enough lidocaine to numb him up so they had to back and inject him with more, but he was a trooper. Even as easy-going as he is, I had them wrap him in sheets since he is so big and I knew he would be a bit scared. He's had stitches before and remembered them. But he did great and earned 2 stickers! What a fun day for him!

I, however, and thoroughly exhausted. After getting home, Mark pulled in for dinner. I remembered we have an elder's quroum social tomorrow and I am supposed to help bring bacon, and another breakfast-ey thing. I didn't have bacon, or enough eggs, so I left the boys there with Daddy while he ate and I ran to the store for those. By this time it was 6:30 and I had no dinner ready since I had just gotten home from the ER. Those rotisserie chickens have never looked so good! Needless to say, that's what we ate for dinner. And it was yummy!

Although, the taco salad Steph and I kept talking about still would have tasted better.....

1st appointment

We went to our 1st OB appointment today! Some may think it didn't go so well, but I feel it was great. Below is our first look at baby Willford! Baby's head is bottom left side, and it's bottom is top right. The bright white object between head and body is a hand that kept waving at us. We have a little jumping bean!


We are measuring right on for our dates, and baby's heartbeat is a strong 175, which is awesome. Everything is looking good. The doctor likes to try and look for gender, because it's fun, and we did get a good view at the rear end. But 10 wks is far too early to tell any difference at this point, baby is just too small and they both look the same at the moment anyway.

The part that some people may say didn't go well is that my 1 hour glucose test was a little high at 147, the cutoff for having to do the test is about 140. But since I have been monitering my fasting glucose and it is already higher than they want they won't make me do the 3 hour, and want me to assume that I am already diabetic. Which means finger pricks and all that. That's fine! I count it as good because I don't have to do the test again!

I also will be seeing an off-base doctor up in Boise. She felt that with my diabetes history, and placenta problems, early deliveries, and NICU babies that I would be better off delivering at St. Lukes in Boise to be near the NICU and to cope with any emergencies that may come up. This hospital can't do insulin during labor, and since I may need to shoot up this time that would pose a problem. Again, some may not think this is good news, but I am thrilled. I just had a feeling that I needed to talk to them about delivery off-base, and the doctor beat me to it. She's putting in the referral and I am to come back in 2 weeks if I don't have an appointment with the new doctor by then. Just to check my sugars and the light bleeding. This referral will mean a lot of gas, because Boise is an hour away, but I will do whatever I have to do!

I am also supposed to take it easy because she could see the bleeding and that some of it is coming from up inside the uterus. She couldn't tell where, so we are erring on the side of caution. It's just a tiny amount and takes so long to get out that by the time it does it is brown, but she wants to be safe. No working out, and lots of time with my feet up. I guess I am packing 1 box every couple of days or something, and may just start saving money to have someone clean the kitchen and bathrooms like Amanda did. I think so long as I go slowly we should be fine.

So I will be nicely monitered this time around, which is just what I was hoping for. And I didn't even have to fight Tricare tooth and nail for it! Hurray! A great 1st appointment!

Hurray!

I am so proud of myself. I finally got the energy to get rid of the junk pile that has been scattered around the house 2-3 times. I sweep everything off the floor into a huge pile, then the kids and I pick through and put things away. Everything else gets thrown away.

It's fine to sweep it up, but if I just leave it there that tends to not be a good thing.

After spending nearly 3 hours trying to help Amanda scrub down the walls - military housing requirement thing - I went home to take a nap before heading to piano lessons. She called me to make sure I was awake and to let me know that she was burning out, and didn't feel right making me either watch her kids again or go spend several more hours helping her clean since I am still very mildly spotting here and there. We asked for help from the Relief Society for today, but I was the only one who showed up. Lovely. Anyway, she decided to call and hire a housecleaner to take care of the interior of the house. This lady cleans everything except the carpets, and garage, garauntees you'll pass inspection, and is about $200 starting. That's if the place isn't a pig stye. Totally worth the money, since she is sick and I am running low on time. Now I can breathe a little easier and she can get started putting the new house together a little bit.

After that, I packed up the boys and ran to my lessons. When I walked in the mom apologized for forgetting to call, but her littlest daughter has some sort of viral thingy that some people are very susceptible to and some aren't but there's no way to know. So we decided to cancel for this week, and I was very okay with this. Sores all down the mouth and throat don't sound fun, and I'm pretty sure I don't want to be exposed to anything nasty right now or my kids! The boys and I went to the grocery store instead and came home with some essentials, and waffle bowls for banana splits! We had our pizza night I have been promising the boys for 3 days, and they had a great time.

But the best part is that my living areas got picked up! I told the boys we had to work up an appetite for our ice cream and so Oren was in charge of toys, Nathan the trash, and I grabbed any clothes and books. The house got swept and the living room vaccummed, and then we all enjoyed our well-deserved sundaes! This absolutely had to be done tonight because I have a sitter coming in the morning to watch the boys while Mark and I go to my appointment with the OB. I didn't want her to come in, turn around, and leave after seeing the mess! Now it looks presentable, and I don't think she'll be scared. Usually I just throw everything into the kitchen/dining room and close the doors, but she'll need to get the boys breakfast in the morning, so that all had to be clean too.....

Won't Mark be suprised! Now, if only I could find the energy to fold all the clean clothes all over my bed....

Spring break is here!

We've made it this far through the school year! What a week too, not much time for just chillin. Tomorrow I will be heading up the cleaning committee at Amanda's house, I am in charge of wiping down walls since that's not too challenging and doesn't involve chemicals. Mark didn't think I should help, but I pointed out that I won't be locking myself into the bathroom with lots of different chemicals and a closed window.

Then Wednesday our babysitter is coming bright and early, about 7:40 am, to crash on the couch for a while. Mark and I are going to my 1st doc appointment, 10 whole weeks! I wouldn't have made him come except they said they are doing an ultrasound to verify my due date. Mostly because I am very overweight and it will be difficult to feel my uterus or pick up a heartbeat for a while. I am planning on talking to them about possibly switching my care over to an OB in Boise that delivers at St. Lukes, because I am very nervous about repeating some of the problems I had with my other boys. Our chances of another NICU baby are high, and I would prefer to be at the same hospital as the baby this time! I'm excited for our 1st glimpse at this new little one. Even though we have had 3 babies, each new one fascinates me! All the ultrasounds I can get, I love seeing my little angels!

Friday is Nathan's doctor's appointment, to check how the infection healed and hopefully clear him for therapy. His therapist and I are crossing our fingers that he'll be good to go! I told the boys we'd try and go to the Discovery Center to hang out after my errands, so this promises to be a very long day.

Mark had to pull up our toilet, something was clogging it again. Big suprise, right? Every couple of months..... He had to go get a new wax ring seal for it and before he could get it put back together, William threw the nuts that hold the tank to the seat down the pipe! They're still there..... neither of us wants to dry digging them out....! So although it would flush beautifully, I still have to go all the way to the other side of the house 2-3 times a night! I love my boys!

I think that's about all I can think of for now. Off to bed!

Packing, but not my house.

We still haven't put in the application for a 4 bedroom, I am sort of waiting to see the heartbeat at our 10 week ultrasound next week to make sure everything is okay. But I did pack 5 boxes today! Just not in my house.

My friend Amanda signed the papers this afternoon for their new home. I came over and helped decide what would get moved over first and finished some boxes that needed done. Went through tons of paperwork and junk and got rid of most of it, because that is what I am good at. Still a lot to do tomorrow, but I am mainly going to be watching the kids so they aren't underfoot and getting into everything.

I don't think it has hit me that she's actually moving into town. Just 15-20 minutes away, but still... I think that after their final inspection and they are signed out of their base house, and I haven't seen her in 3 days or had her just come over for the fun of it..... then it will hit me. Like a ton of bricks.

She has been an amazing friend for the last 3 years! Loaned us furniture when we had nothing for 2 months. Watched the boys while we were in the hospital having William. Took Oren and Nathan overnight when William had his concussion. Cleans my house with me. She was there for my initial appointment when I was diagnosed with being bipolar, and watches me like a hawk to make sure I'm okay. I have been there for her through tough times with her husband being deployed 3 times since I've been here. I watched her daughter while she was giving birth to her youngest. I held her when she cried because she had thrown up for 8 months straight and was running on nearly no sleep most of her pregnancy. It's been like having my sister live right next door!

We'll still hang out, I am going down every Wednesday for her daughter's piano lessons. But it won't be the same. She won't be right there. William will miss her little girl, they play all the time are get so excited to see each other. Her middle girl has played with Nathan for 3 years, and never once made fun of Nathan's speech. Her oldest and Oren like to do their homework together. I will be picking up her oldest everyday after school and watching her until her dad gets off work and takes her home, so they don't have to pay for afterschool childcare, so that's better than nothing.

Definitely getting hormonal! I'm sitting here tearing up.... sad. Okay, I think it's hitting me a tad now. Plus I am seriously tired and probably need to get off and go to bed. Going to be a busy and long day tomorrow!

I cooked!

I sooooo almost skipped out on fajitas, because today was Educator's night at McDonalds and Oren's teacher was working the fryer over there. Sort of a fun thing the district does. But, I had told Mark about the fajita's I was planning and I would have felt terrible if he had come home for dinner, just for those, and we were gone eating burgers just because I was tired. So I made myself cook.

Totally worth it! I quit using packets a long time ago. I had a recipe that I used to use, but I kind just throw the stuff in now because I have made it with that recipe for years and know what goes in it. The meat marinades in a bag with the spices, a little oil and some lime juice for a while and then fry it up. Easy, cheap, and delicious! I cracked open a can of black beans and simmered them with some Sazon Goya con cilantro y achiote - great stuff, pick it up in the mexican aisle, a little box. Microwaved some minute rice and voila! Dinner!

And what do you know. Mark came home for dinner, and said it was the best thing I have cooked for a long time!

I'ts one of the only things I have cooked in a long time, from scratch...... :-)