Saturday, January 2, 2010

Debating if it's really worth it?

So, I have an odd child. Daniel has been on this weird kick where he will only nurse if I'm laying down on my side. Except in the middle of the night when he is more than happy to nurse with me sitting up. ?????? It's been so frustrating! I feel like nothing get's done anyway because he still tends to cluster feed and only really sleeps well when being held. But now I spend most of my day laying down on the couch or the bed.

I am THIS close to saying I'll just pump bottles for him. Except I'm actually making enough milk so far and don't want to jepardize it. It hasn't been that big of an issue since we've been home the last 2 weeks on break and I don't really have to go anywhere. But what about when I start making the school runs again, and therapy in town, and piano lessons? It's not like I can lay down on the couch in the therapy waiting room, or my student's lessons, and just nurse away.

He does gulp less air when I'm lying down, so I know if feels better on his tummy to eat that way. It just makes me wonder if I should be happy I got this far and just give bottles so I can go back on my meds without worrying about what those are doing to him as well. How far do I want to go to get him eating in a normal fashion again? You'd think my 4th child would be my easiest to feed. Apperantly not. He's also my worst napper. (Sorry Rachel, hope yours turns out sunshiny happy. :-)) It's a good thing he's cute.


Rachel H. said...

TOUGH CALL WITH THE NURSING THING...hopefully he will just adjust once your schedule changes. :) GOOD LUCK!!!

Sarah said...

That is tough. I think as long as they're eating, that's the most important thing. In the end it doesn't matter if it was a bottle. So, do what you need to do...and good luck!