That right there is the sound of my heart beating again.
You know, being a mom there are a few things I can think of that would terrify me. Things that would make my heart stop for a minute or two. One of my children getting life threatening cancer... one of them getting hit by a car.... one of them wandering too far from home and I can't find them. Can you guess which one happened today?
Oren had been asking me all morning if he could ride his bike. For some reason I really didn't feel comfortable letting him, we had somewhere to be this afternoon and I didn't want to have to track him down and risk being late to our WIC appointment. (we really needed the checks.) So I told him no.
When we got home he didn't ask because he knew we were headed straight for T-ball, so he got his stuff ready and we all took off. But when we got home from that Mark had a church meeting to run to, and I started dinner. He started asking again, and I still really didn't want to say yes. Finally I gave in, the constant asking was getting annoying. I told him he could ride his bike 3 times around the circle, we live at the end of a culdesac, and then he was to come back in because dinner would be ready. Several minutes went by, he didn't come in. I looked out the front door and saw there were kids at the big park at the end of the street, so figured he had taken off down there and he would be back in a few minutes. I put William down to bed, sat Nathan down with a movie, and went walking to go get Oren, his dinner was cold. Not at the little park by our house, not at the big park down the street, not at the park at the end of the next street, or the street across from our street. There's lots of parks.... Not on the bike path that winds down behind our house. Peeved....Panic.....Praying.
I woke William up, threw him and Nathan in the car, checked with a neighbor if she had seen them, she sent her son around on his bike, and I drove up and down every street in our neighborhood. Not a sign of him. I thought I would have to call the police and have the patrols search the neighborhood, because the sun was starting to set and visibility would soon be low. Then the thought hit me that he likes to ride way down to the school with Daddy, and to some parks in different neighborhoods. Part of that "daddy special time", the part I don't really like because it might make Oren feel like he has permission to wander that far by himself. I turned out of the neighborhood toward the school, and pulled up at the first park on the way there. There were some kids playing and I asked if they had seen a little blond boy on a red.... And there he was. Not a clue he had done something wrong. I have walked that far from my house and it takes at least 15 minutes. I would say that is beyond voice range, and way to far for my particular 6-year old.
I yelled the whole way home, grounded him until he grows too big for the bike (or at least 2 weeks...) and sent him to bed without dinner. I have never been so afraid. I was crying a good part of the way home, and it is hard to cry when you are yelling. I know Mark will be mad because I let Oren ride his bike by himself, but I had set clear boundries where he is allowed to ride, and I am not the one that has been taking him all over the place! Usually I can trust him to stay where I say, but this one time is it. Daddy is not taking him on those bike rides for a good long time!
It got me thinking though that I am so grateful we are on base. There is only so far he can go before hitting a fence, although the fence is pretty far out there. People aren't going to kidnap him, or strangle him on base. I know there are still bad people on a base, it's not totally safe. But the world has changed so much from when I was that age. I rode everywhere! But I can't let Oren. There are cayotes (spelling?) and wolves around the base borders. There are still child molesters out there. There are cars that drive fast and don't watch for small children on bikes. Base isn't totally safe, but it is better than living in a questionable neighborhood outside. I hope I scared him enough that he doesn't do that again, and I hope that I will be able to let him go when he is ready...
6 comments:
I know how terrifying that is. I lost Caleb at the beach on the way home from Florida when he was three years old, and we didn't find him for 30 mins. I thought he had drowned or something. I'm glad you had a happy ending.
I'm glad that he is okay, I think that you made a good decision as a parent. You might have over-reacted a bit, but there are very few who wouldn't have. I am one of the ones who probably would have. I would request that you have Mark tell him that he is not to go that far alone. He might respond better if the one that he learned the way from explains the boundaries. That way you are not pitting his parents against each other in his mind. Mark being the enabler, also needs to be the one to restrict so that he doesn't always put Daddy as the nice one and Mommy as the mean one. And on a more biased note, I would ask you not to blame Mark for Oren's transgression.
Love you all, and I hope to see you all again sometime soon,
Kevin
What a scary experience!
Maybe I am wrong, but I think that that bike ride with dad is the PERFECT reason he cant go alone. I mean, if that is THEIR special thing, couldn't you just tell him that because that is a special place to go with daddy, he can't go alone. You could talk about the COOL Oren bike bath (and physically stand out and watch him ride the circle and talk about how COOL it is to ride there only) and then their is the daddy bike path that he can ONLY go on if he is with dad....
ya think?
Wow, I thought at first you were going to say he got hit by a car. Not that getting lost isn't scary, but you know what I mean.
Good luck with the setting boundaries thing.
The thing about Oren is that because of the ADHD, he has very little impulse control. He thinks of something, and he does it because all that matters is now, the fact that it is wrong, or that there will be consequenses doesn't even enter into his brain, until he is getting into trouble. Mark has told him over and over that the only time he is to go off the street at all is when Daddy is with him, that they have to go together and that's what makes it fun. We've done all that. When I told Mark Oren had run off, his first words were "I'm not taking him on the bike for a while then." Because he knows Oren isn't mature emotionally to handle the changed boundries. There is always trips to the store for Daddy time, when we take one child to the store with one parent we always get the child a special time treat. That was the special time before Mark thought of the bike rides. He's only done that a couple times. And taking away bike priveledges is standard here when Oren rides where he isn't supposed to, even a little down the street. So we are going to wait a while, let Oren mature a little more, before doing those special bike rides again. Let him grow enough to be able to handle those impulses a little better.
Wow, that's scary. I know Marie used to run off all the time, but I guess it's different when it's your own child. Yeah, with Oren being the way he is, loss of all bike privileges for a while is probably the best route to take.
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